The Therapist

Hi, so after that bloody mental breakdown, I went to see a therapist. That didn't in any way work out, and in the end all I felt, was violated.
THERE IS A REASON I DON'T TALK TO PEOPLE!
I have to go and see her again in a couple of days. Wish me luck! :(

A Breakdown

A couple of weeks ago I have a mental breakdown, (that's what I called it anyway) and that left me in a right state... I'll start from the beginning, i had been at drama for approx 2 hours and a friend then drove me home, when we got back I sat on the step for a minute cause I had felt a bit dizzy. My friend turned his car around and then as he drove back past the house he slowed cause noticed I hadn't gone in the house yet, he asked me if I was alright a I gave him a thumbs up, because basically I thought I was just fine. Now I knew nobody was in the house and as soon I had got up and shut the door and locked it...

I burst into tears. I suddenly got really paranoid, I had turned every light in the house off and I even barricaded my door. The first thing I then did was to text my friend who had dropped me off and I wrote, " You asked if I was alright. I think I gave you a thumbs up... My answer is no" immediately he messaged me and said "What's up chuck?". And I lost it. I wouldn't talk to anyone else and for about a hour I sat rocking on my bed and saying to myself that "They could see!!" I don't even know who I was on about but I was paranoid. My friend asked me questions and I tried to answer them best I could. So I think if I haven't texted him I might have done something so bad and really stupid.

My mum came back a hour ½ later to find all the lights off and her not being able to get in my room. I managed to calm down enough and for the next ten minuets I would let her touch me. Another twenty minutes after that I was back to normal and if you hadn't seen me or the messages you would never have known I was any different.

I still haven't seen my friend yet cause I only see him at drama and to be honest I'm nervous to see him. But I hope everything will be good between us because the side of me he heard and saw wasn't a side of me I ever wanted anyone to see.

Talk later x

A Restart

Okay so recently all has been going well. I am now in 2014 without any recent faults!

Until October!!!!
I suddenly was bedridden again, whatever I'd had before is back, same symptoms but slightly different, sleep isn't the main issue. It's the headaches that are to bad to bear and the stomach aches that make me want to throw up every time I eat something. I'm still sleeping a lot but it's not nearly as bad, I'm getting to occasional lessons at school which is good.
So I'm ill and I thought I should make a blog about how much it all suck!!!
x

The Beginning

In October of 2012 I fell asleep, this may sound a bit weird but it was bad. After 5 MONTHS of being asleep the doctors came to the conclusion that I had M E, which I believe is a certain Cystic Fibrosis Syndrome (or CF). But basically this meant that the doctors thought they kind of knew what they were dealing with. So they told me what I had but gave me no medication for it so it didn't really help.

My symptoms included.
~ Constant sleeping
~ Headaches
~ Not eating enough
& feeling sick if I did eat something.
So it was bad, I was unable to go to school and didn't really talk to anyone for a whole 6 months. At the end of these 6 months my mum took me to see an Emotion Code Therapist and a Homœtherapist (not sure if that's the right spelling), and then in about a week I was better. I started a new school and made new friends. So that sounds good right... I'll be back unfortunately! :(